Because of my small economy (sickness, minimal compensation) I started to put aside money for a new dog immediately when Ella was gone. I knew it would take time before I got together enough money to be able to buy the dog I want, so despite the grief both wanted and needed to start immediately.
As I have told several times, Is there me, of course, a single active breeder of Cão da Serra da Estrela in Sweden (on Gotland). This means that the availability of puppies is not necessarily large or continuous. Therefore, it feels so extremely important to get together enough money to be able to get one once there are puppies. My hope is that there will be puppies available sometime in the winter – But I don't know.
I'll tell you A little secret. I have Never in my entire life managed to save to something that cost more than a few hundred. Never. I'm incredible at keeping money.
Therefore, it is Absolutely fucking incredible that I actually, For the first time in my entire life, succeed in saving money – to my dog. For me it is an extremely great proof of how important this is to me. Especially when things happen with my economy that I cannot control over, but still manage to keep focus and keep putting away money. Then I feel extremely generous people, and some of them have and will contribute a little money here and there.
Every little helps.
Every little helps becomes a dog.
Min dog.
Apart from I mourn my Ella, so i am so incredibly fucking as happy with me soon to have the money to mine (Nya) dog. That dog will never replace Ella, for there is no dog that can.
But it comes to take one's own place, and I already feel that it will be as special to me as Ella – stuck in a different way. And believe me; no one is happier for it than me.
But think, still. Think That I., With good help from others, Yet is on such incredibly good way to be able to get me dog again soon. And not any dog, without a dog I actually want. As long as I have been interested in dogs at all, Do I have porn surfing dog breeds – I think it's incredibly exciting. But most dogs are for various reasons uninteresting to me (For example, I do not want a hunting dog), So I am so incredibly happy to have found a breed I really think will be as good as any.
It is very much many feelings in this, for me. Partly I am so incredibly impressed with myself so I almost bang off. As said was; This with saving money is not my strong side, so that at all even managed to save a few hundred is absolutely amazing. To know that I have significantly more money than a few hundred, Is totally fucking fucking amazing.
I am also incredible thankful that it has been (and is) possible to put away money. I am grateful for the dogs I had the opportunity to have here. I am thankful for those who contributed (and will contribute) economically.
Gratitude extends themselves farther than to “only” money, dock. I am incredibly grateful that I will have choices. If it would now be so that there will be no puppies on Swedish soil, Will I be able to choose if I want to get another breed – or, If I'm lucky, If I might even want to import a puppy. The latter feels extremely much premium, and there maybe the limit for how much money I get together… but just the thought that it might be possible – wow.
So I intend to take me the freedom to enjoy that for once I have soon succeeded in something that, I think, is more important to me than anything else has ever been. ♥