It's just as good that I admit it at once. I have incredibly hard to let go of Ella. She is constantly being. I measure strength and intensity in qualities between her and Boyo, and it is always she who wins. This is something I have been aware of ever since I picked up Boyo almost seven weeks ago.
I've been Extremely spoiled with all that Ella has been, Even the most tough and stressful pages. I have a hard time imagining that I will ever want a defense -born dog again, But I will never have a dog such as Ella. In comparison with her, every dog is more or less half dead.
This is not something I am proud of. It is not very flattering to think down their new dog compared to the former, But for me my Ella will always be so incredibly special. She was my first dog, and also very special – not just for me, Without as a dog. It is very hard not to compare other dogs with her, and as all mats and houses should be of course biased. Ella is the coolest dog I will ever have lived with.
Because of This as well as the fact that most pets have very short lives compared to us humans, Have I had a resistance to bonding properly with Boyo. Partly because he is so incredibly different Ella, But also because I didn't really dare. Last year I lost both Ella and Zoe, and it both takes and tears on me.
Ella was never Especially fond of other dogs. There were some of she worked well with. I don't think Ella and Lilo would work together. Not Ella and Egon either, for that part. Ella and Mysak have always worked. Likewise Ella and Boris, a rice schnau -male one of my best friends had, but that is gone for several years. Ella and Keisa (Mozart's Family's last dog) Worked well coupled outdoors.
However, so think so I actually that Ella and Boyo would have worked very well together. Where Ella was hard, Tough and sharp, is boyo soft – but actually with pondus, at least in some situations. I don't really know why I think they would have worked, but i actually believe that.
The turning point in it Here with letting Boyo take his place in my heart… there, It's going on. He like growing into me – I don't know how to express it in any other way. He is not Ella, and will never be. It cuts in the heart and I don't really want to at all because it means I have to leave Ella, But somehow I begin to accept that Boyo is here and now, and that I also have to be.
It's hardly I can think of it without breaking down. How should I be able to leave Ella behind me? It's ten months since she left me today and I still miss her so I bang off. There is a lot in her that I don't get in Boyo. For example, he does not have the same resistance in itself as she had, And it's something I miss.
Don't get me wrong, dock. That Boyo is so different Ella does not mean that he is bad in any way. On the contrary. He is the world's best puppy, and he will develop to become both large, Dirty and really cool. I will love him just as much as I loved and love Ella, Sotis, Saga, Zoe and Molly.
I just have hard to adjust my heart right now.
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Otherwise is It's damn good, This with the Coronavirus right now. It means that I have no great desire to bring me the dogs and environmental training them in different places, Because that means I need to take the bus. But it would be needed, Because I like to see that Boyo becomes as well -functioning dog as possible, In as many environments as possible.
Oh well. It is as it is. I have been new to and off for a couple of days, So I have no great desire to expose either myself or others to any unnecessary risks.