Ella was here
I am one of those who believe that the only thing that happens when you die is that you change form. Namely; you don't really disappear, you just change shape …
Tag: grief
More recurring thoughts about Ella
That's what happens when you lose a dog, I notice. A lot of thoughts rotating in the skull, over and over again. I have two blogs to vent my thoughts …
Four weeks without
It has been four weeks since tomorrow, Tuesday (or today, depending on when the post is published). Four weeks without Ella, which is so incredibly strange. These four weeks – the …
The little girls also mourn
It is easy to believe that I am the only one here at home that grieves, But that is not actually. Before, it was incredibly difficult to know how …
Missing Ella
Yes. I don't really know how to start this post. The days pass and look exactly the same. Even more so now, than before Ella left me. I …
Two weeks without Ella
Two weeks ago I was sitting on the floor of the vet with Ella in my arms. She was disloyal, completely relaxed. There was not an iota of life left in her body. …
Approach to dog
I'm thinking a lot about Ella versus other dogs right now. I suspect that will be the case, because Ella is no longer with me, which gives me the opportunity to meet others …
Not my Ella
Today is the first day Karma is here. It's only been about a week since Ella left me, but over the past week I have realized that I must …
Grief work, day 2
First, I just want to say that I have read your comments, you who posted on Facebook. I haven't answered, because I have nothing to say. I'm completely empty. …
First day without
It has been more than a day since Ella had to fall asleep for the last time. Permanent. I myself have a horse job in front of me. To learn to live with the silence and …